You Brought Me To My Knees

digitalheroin @ 2009-01-14T19:49:00

2009-01-15T01:49:40Z

ummmmmmmm
i'm finishing jterm organic chemistry
that sucks
my boyfriend is awesome
rhodells beer is awesome
my nieces are awesome
2nd day as a bookstore temp today
3 tests by monday
ARG!

digitalheroin @ 2008-09-18T22:51:00

2008-09-19T03:53:33Z

i got fired today.

but i did get to flip off the dm. so that was neat.

digitalheroin @ 2008-07-26T00:05:00

2008-07-26T05:06:03Z

working 6 days a week sucks.

but i counted all my money today, and i have like a gazillion dollars.

amanda is taking my picture tomorrow so i can enter the torrid model search. nothing's going to happen, but it will be fun to try.

my summer class was dropped after the first day because it was physics 2, and i should probably take physics 1 first.

i have a new niece. her name is lola elizabeth and she was born july 17 at 10:10 pm. she was 6 lbs 12 oz and 19 inches long. she has lots of dark hair and looks like kelsey (so she looks like ian). i need to go see her again, but i've been working all the time and it sucks.

digitalheroin @ 2008-07-02T02:52:00

2008-07-02T07:51:04Z

i almost forgot how much i love the dear hunter and cursive.

how the fuck could i forget that?

the dear hunter is playing in chicago and st louis in august. i want to go so bad.

digitalheroin @ 2008-06-26T01:49:00

2008-06-26T06:57:23Z

I had a dream last night that my grandfather called me and told me he wanted to say goodbye to me but didn't tell me why. Later on in the dream, he died. It was like it was happening now, but my grandfather died when I was 6. Afterwards, I woke up and stayed up. It really upset me, and I'm not so sure why.

I've been working far too much. No kids this week, and I told Emmy that they should find someone else so I can finally move into my apartment. My physics class starts on the 14th of July, and I hope to be in by then.

Jenny's baby shower is next weekend. Amanda and I worked on something special last night, and I still have to ask her about if she's actually registered anything. DJ and Stephanie are still waiting for their baby. If Stephanie doesn't have it this week, she's getting induced the day after Jenny's baby shower. In that case, I get to work on my Sunday off. But I can't be mad, because it's for Corvin and DJ obviously can't miss seeing his son be born.

Laura asked me to be in her wedding in August. It's very fast, and they're still planning it. Hopefully I get to go get my dress tomorrow. I know which one I want and Dave and Laura saw it and gave it the thumbs up today.

digitalheroin @ 2008-05-10T12:09:00

2008-05-10T17:11:28Z

Happy 1st birthday EJ!

I did something incredibly out of my character Monday. I am glad I did though. It's time for me to stop being so intimidated, and you know... It feels really good now that I did it.

Last weekend, they boys and I went to Iron Man. It's fantastic! Go see it!

I should be more prepared for finals, but I'm not.

digitalheroin @ 2008-04-20T16:38:00

2008-04-20T21:39:06Z

last night meggan's car died, so i jumped them in the parking lot, then took them grocery shopping.

pat made us chicken and fried potatoes (it was delcious) and we watched lets go to prison and played with the chihuahua puppy named rad.

pat also has purple spongebob nikes.

i love them a lot.

digitalheroin @ 2008-04-08T20:12:00

2008-04-09T01:16:42Z

tomorrow my dad has a ct scan to see if there is any cancer left.

jenny is coming tomorrow. she has a job interview at cat up here.

we are going to see barry manilow in st louis on the 25th then to a cardinals game the 26th (amy is going to the one the day after!). i'm excited, but i'll be missing amanda's 21st birthday and 24 hours of music (i haven't missed one since i started going. sorry geisert 8 boys :( ).

i have 2/4 tests done for the week. tomorrow is medical terminology.. which is very easy. and friday is western civ. i've started studying for it but i don't know how well i will do.

charlie is so big. i saw a tiny pug on tv a few days ago and he was the size of charlie when we got him. but now that charlie is 7 months old, he's huge. i don't want him to get bigger.

i will be moving out in about a month. it's weird to think about.

digitalheroin @ 2008-03-30T21:13:00

2008-03-31T02:11:45Z

i'm ready to get married.

i don't like the part that comes before though.

digitalheroin @ 2008-02-10T14:08:00

2008-02-10T20:35:38Z

stuff i want for my birfday (future reference for me)

http://www.interpunk.com/item.cfm?Item=120621&

http://www.sininlinen.com/bedroom/sheet_sets/tattoo_bone.shtml
full size sheets

tickets to say anything in chicago 3/21

xbox 360

wii

plugs: any size up to a 6g or 4g

http://www.amazon.com/Small-Surgical-Steel-Anchor-Earrings/dp/B000J44K8K/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=jewelry&qid=1202674655&sr=8-1

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=3983

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=3985 (blue)

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=2736

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=2617

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=2911

http://www.bodyartforms.com/productdetails.asp?ProductID=1488

http://clandestineindustries.seenon.com/detail.php?p=24369&v=ci-accessories

http://www.amazon.com/Sony-Cybershot-DSCW55-Digital-Optical/dp/B000M4KXEC/ref=pd_bbs_sr_2?ie=UTF8&s=electronics&qid=1202674669&sr=8-2

digitalheroin @ 2008-01-30T00:34:00

2008-01-30T06:35:54Z

I'm halfway through this Utopia book and I have to write a 500 word essay on it by Friday. Thursday will present me with a test on epithelial cells in what I can tell will be one of the worst classes ever (Histology). I'm suprisingly tolerant of my Western Civ class. Tomorrow is my first Medical Terminology class. We'll see how that goes.

Oh, Bradley.

digitalheroin @ 2008-01-01T12:21:00

2008-01-01T18:25:24Z

I don't even remember the last time I used this.

I've been sleeping for 14 hours... slept through new years. It snowed, and I was too sick to go out and do anything.

Jessie graduated and moved to Chicago. Nicole and I went and saw her on Thursday because she's having not so good of a time up there. I found a forensic lab on Roosevelt while we were driving around that I'm in looove with and want to work there, so I've been stalking jobs.

Clint came home for Christmas and I got to see him. He's adooooorable.

Jenny came to visit too and I feel bad I went to Chicago, but I had already told Jess I'd probably come see her before I knew they were coming. And they're coming back to find a house in a couple weeks anyway.

2007 was a bust. I met new, wonderful people and lost old ones dear to my heart. My dad got sick and in general it was just a sucky year.

Here's to new beginnings in 2008. Everything will change, hopefully for the better.

digitalheroin @ 2007-09-25T00:36:00

2007-09-25T05:34:30Z

we'll be okay.

digitalheroin @ 2007-08-14T13:24:00

2007-08-14T18:33:55Z

o hay lj

school starts next monday.
last semester at icc.
then i'm about 99% sure i'm going to bradley.

things sucked for a while, but now they're better. <3

my dad has been acting really weird. i was on the phone for a couple hours a few nights ago and he cried because he has to "work to pay for the cell phone bill", because he's convinced it's going to cost $800 or something. even though i don't nearly use the amount of minutes i'm allowed.

he started a new job in wyoming. i don't know what he does, but my cousin darryn used to work there.

spending lots of time with amanda, lori and paul. part of the reason i'm going to bradley. it's nice to have fun.

i really look forward to seeing the group this weekend. i miss everyone. it sucks that jobs have to keep us all from hanging out, but it makes the times we do that much better.

digitalheroin @ 2007-07-13T22:50:00

2007-07-14T03:51:24Z

Why do I have to fuck up EVERYTHING good in my life?

I want to die.

digitalheroin @ 2007-07-13T01:58:00

2007-07-13T07:13:35Z

Getting a pay increase is pretty awesome.

I haven't been doing much. Been in really weird moods, spending a lot of time alone (when I'm not at work).

Last night was my "aunt" Sherry's memorial service. She was my cousins Shawna and Darren's mom. She and my uncle were only married for about 7 years, and that was a long time ago (and he passed away in 1999). We suspect she OD'd on sleeping pills. She was always a very weird woman. Very much a hypochondriac and took advantage of as many people as she could. She was getting free handouts from the Baptist chuch she attended and it was so odd to see them talk about her in such a positive way. I guess they were too naive to see she was just taking advantage of them (ie: calling the pastor while she was in the nursing home and asking him for $20, because she "had $20, but when it was spent she would have nothing"). Shawna and Darren didn't even seem that upset, but she wasn't much of a mother (considering they lived with my grandparents until they died).

The pastor got off subject often and even went off on a tangent about terrorists being forgiven for what they've done if they just accept Jesus Christ. What the fuck are you talking about? And is it really necessary to bring that up while you're holding a memorial for someone? For one thing, the guy started throwing around "Obama Bin Laden" for a while, so obviously he's definately a man of high intelligence.

I wanted to get up and walk out in the middle of it.

Mandy and I are going to look at puppies tomorrow. And we're going to sit around and watch Weeds all day some time next week.

Andrew, Lindsay and I are going to see Dog The Bounty Hunter talk at the Civic Center in August. We're unnecessarily excited about this.

digitalheroin @ 2007-06-25T03:34:00

2007-06-25T08:37:58Z

I already moved home from Tennessee.
There were some good times, but I'm really glad to be home.
I'll finish my intern hours in the fall here in Peoria.

But I have a feeling everything will be amazing from now on.

...And "Your Love" by the Outfield is INTENSE. Best song forever x 800. Jus' sayin'.

digitalheroin @ 2007-06-04T01:37:00

2007-06-04T06:39:06Z

Today we found out my dad's cancer spread into his lymphatic system.

Exactly 1 year ago today was one of the best moments of my life and now this is one of the worst.

I don't want to leave.

digitalheroin @ 2007-06-01T20:15:00

2007-06-02T01:19:31Z

I'm pretty excited

BLUE JEAN FRIDAYS AT THE POLICE STATION, YA'LL.

And my dad's doing fine. They don't think the cancer spread, but he's on a lot of morphine so he just kind of sleeps/spaces out. He told me he thinks he's OD'ing on it, when they have it on a timed pump. He's also complaining like normal and came up with the joke "You're being fascias? I didn't know you collected stamps". I don't get it either.

digitalheroin @ 2007-05-29T22:55:00

2007-05-30T04:00:30Z

My dad's in the hospital.
He's having a blood transfusion right now because of his anemia.
In the morning, he'll get tests to find out what's wrong.
It was nice to see him getting his color back, and he was able to get up out of his bed easier than he has.
He says he can't tell if he feels better.
Mom thinks he looks yellow.
He is supposed to start a new job on Monday at an arsenal in Rock Island, but I'm not so sure of that now.

I leave a week from Saturday.

I'm really hoping to see Clint this weekend.

Jenny and Ian came for the weekend. We went to Adam and Hope's wedding. We also took Kelsey to Chuck E Cheese for the first time. She loved it. The baseball game on Sunday was rainy. And I ate at Macaroni Grill and I'm extremely disappointed I didn't get the extra bread to take home like the lady said I could.

digitalheroin @ 2007-05-21T01:23:00

2007-05-21T06:31:39Z

Please don't be technology
Cause I can't turn off your love
Like some cold machine

Don't feed me scraps from your bed
And I won't be the stray coming back
Just to be fed

Don't be waves
Come to seal my fate, marine
Just pretend
That you want me
And be my babe

Don't be that note I can't hold
Don't be that joke that I told
And told
'Til it got old
Don't be that hand around my throat
So I can't breathe
You say you're my friend
But why won't you be my family?

Well, if you breed
Just don't tell me

Be my babe

Be my serene
Tell me you know what I mean
(Prove me wrong)
You've set on me
But you are not the sun
You are not the sun
(How do they know where I am?)

(Burn it down)
Outside your cold lips again
You set on me, but you are not the sun
And you will not listen

So let's pretend that you love me
And be my babe

digitalheroin @ 2007-05-15T21:54:00

2007-05-16T02:55:55Z

I'm discovering how incredibly impatient I am.

I need others' company.

digitalheroin @ 2007-05-06T19:51:00

2007-05-07T00:55:00Z

say anything was amazing. i hadn't felt that happy in a really long time.

i left my camera in the car so i didn't get pictures (who knew cameras would be okay?). i have a picture of max on my phone though. it's blurry, but he's still beautiful.

body worlds was neat. again with the no pictures, though. the giant camel with the tri-sectioned head was AWESOME.

amy's baby ej still isn't here. he was due yesterday. i'm still aiming for the 9th so i can win the bet. let's go buddy!

i'm surprised with myself that i have my homework done. 2 written assignments for criminal law and a 3 page paper for ethics. i have to study for my cst final on tuesday. i'm incredibly nervous about it.

beautiful building on michigan avenue

CHANEL!

digitalheroin @ 2007-04-16T02:02:00

2007-04-16T07:01:10Z

also, i am now on the hunt for a black t-shirt that says

Patrick &
Peter &
Andy &
Joe

on the front, and FOB on the back.

bitch had it at MCS and i want. bad.

digitalheroin @ 2007-04-16T01:26:00

2007-04-16T06:27:28Z

nicole and i went to motion city soundtrack at bradley
it was sweet
justin sang happy birthday to my friend amanda, then gave her a dollar. luckyyyy. he's so hot.

the starting line didn't show up. they said they missed their flight because of weather, but they were actually doing interviews in new york. fgtz.

treaty of paris also played. they weren't very good.

i introduced nicole to my good friend smoothie king. then we went to super pets and i found a little boy pug named harold. i wanted to buy him so bad, but he was $650 and nicole said i should've just used plastic. he was the cutest thing everrrrrrrr. my dad is even looking at pugs for me, so i'm one step closer to getting one.

i got some chanel earrings from bling bling beauty supply. they were $3. i expected to come out and my car not to have wheels anymore, but everything's fine.

shelby's going to have a baby soooooon. i bought baby brooklyn some sweet rocawear yesterday. a+.